Oh, hello narcissism!

Last year I made a VIDEO outlining my resolutions for 2012. Here’s a quick review of the more pertinent ones.

EXERCISE MORE, which I did in an effort to raise money for The Stroke Association. This led to a small series of videos to make people chuckle and dig deeper, including this guide to making muesli sexy. 

STOP BEING A DICK I was a dick. Apologies.

APPROACH THINGS IN A MORE MATURE MANNER Directly relate to being a dick, I failed here too. I was not always the most mature, reasoned and sober as I could have been. I formed opinions on people based on hearsay, I made irrational choices, and was generally a dick (see previous).  

WRITE BACK TO YOUR FATHER I didn’t. My birth father actually got in touch with me via text several times over 2012, and I did not always handle it in the best way. My go-to response was to get hurricane drunk and make bad choices, mainly because I have put off dealing with our estrangement for a very, very long time. Textbook Daddy Issues/damaged goods, whatever pop psychology you want to attach to it, I was it. This all culminated in a very emotional phone call in the latter half of the year when he made a direct plea to be in my life again and I ended up in a blubbering heap on the deli kitchen floor. Healthy! 

START FIGURING OUT WHAT IT IS YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO DO Nailed that one down, just haven’t grasped the DOING of that thing, yet.

WRITE MORE COMEDY STUFF I didn’t. I wrote horror stuff instead, but depending on your point of view you could argue that my attempts were comedic.

SPEND MORE TIME WITH MR. COLLINS Nailed it. I even live with him now. We had one or two teething problems to begin with, but now we’ve got cohabitation down pat, even if his interpretation of “a reasonable temperature for the flat” differs vastly from my own. 

GET OVER YOUR CRUSH ON PROFESSOR ROBERT WINSTON I may as well give up ever shaking his vice-like grip on my heart.

FIND OUT WHAT A CLEVELAND STEAMER IS Found out… not happening. 

So… not a hugely successful run of resolutions. Let’s see what’s in store for 2013 *cracks knuckles*

MAKE A CONCERTED EFFORT TO MAINTAIN GOOD FRIENDSHIPS I spent two years not talking to someone who is smart, funny and weird in a way I understand, for silly reasons that the two of us are now so very over. We hashed it out over a heckuvalottawine and are now back to sexually harassing each other like the past two years haven’t happened.

And in that spirit I will make sure that I don’t let other friendships fall by the wayside. Too much time has been wasted on silly, pathetic reasons such as time, distance, and playground politics. Time to be more, y’know, grown up.

HAVE AN OPINION OF MY OWN I spend way too much time on the fence to avoid confrontation. Or maybe I don’t. I don’t know, whatever you think is cool with me.

GO SEE MY FATHER At an as yet undetermined point this year I’m going to make a long overdue trip to Germany to lay some old ghosts to rest and put some water under bridges and other turns of phrase.

WRITE MORE The wonderful Blonde has resolved to write more this year (which can only be a good thing because she’s already a fab writer) and I’m going to follow her lead. I love writing and have had no shortage of inspiration in 2012, I just… I’m a bit rubbish in that I’m afraid to fail, which is very likely why I keep rising up the ranks in a job that I only really enjoy rather than love, when I could be having a mad time trying and failing (and hopefully succeeding) at something I really love. Writing. Developing. Creating. Which leads me to…

DO THE THING YOU’VE FIGURED OUT YOU WANT TO DO Film development. Cut my teeth as a script reader and get knees deep into writing, editing and developing films. I can’t still be in the same job this time next year. I’ve got to start doing what I came to London to do.

Wish me luck, pickles.